Today, Monday, July 20, 2015 I gave my apartment manager a 30-day notice. This is something I did in summer of 2008 and it's not a coincidence. I have been planning to uproot my life in another city, most notably New York, for sometime now but with many job rejections for the better half of this year and with a combination of procrastination and fear, right now could not make anymore more sense. Leaving to New York on the same date I did eight years is bringing a sense of comfort, is giving my decision and strong sense of meaning because in a strange way, I feel the same way I did in 2008 after I graduated college. I graduated in May 2008 without a job lined up, I was working a meaningless hostess job at Mimi's Cafe and more importantly I was ready for a lifestyle change. I remember taking down posters off my wall, getting rid of silly nic nac's all for a mature and sophisticated feel in my college bedroom, no more football pom poms. I have caught myself doing the same thing this year in anticipation I guess. Except this time I am getting rid of anything access i.e. old clothes, old bedding, old makeup and not repurchasing more... Back then, I wanted to move to the next level, to be a professional with my degree. This time around, I'm quasi professional with 5 years of experience in a career related field - but with the same urge of change, upgrade in life. I have really found myself ready for a drastic change again and since I have given up my apartment before, threw my stuff in the storage before and left for a month without a job, I am less fearful in doing it again. This time, I have a lot more to loose ie. my dog, my salary, my cushy 1 bedroom apartment which has made it hard to mentally prepare to give it up - leaving me overdue for the next step in my career. I have outgrown my workplace and admittedly it's not something I can endure for another year.
On September 15, 2015 I will be on a plane to New York. I am excited and 100% certain I am doing the right thing. I have devised a backup plan that I will also be content with. Last but not least, I don't think I will ever stop chasing my dream of one day owning an apartment in New York City, even if it's just for vacation.
Read my 2008 New York posts here.
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